Fucking Update

[jackshoegazer]

With an animated sense of anticipation and adequately anxious, I arrived at work, knowing there would be a reply to my letter to Anna. I swiftly rummaged through my folder, snatched the letter and bustled off to the break room to read it in peace. Finally, after twelve agonizingly anxious hours of stomach churning nervousness, I would know if my feelings were reciprocated, or if I am merely a fool with a crush. Suspenseful enough?

Apparently not. Because her reply was not exactly a reply. It was a page and a half of declarations that she was completely "floored" and her mind was spinning, and other idioms for being shocked and in awe, thanking me for such a "beautiful and eloquent" letter. And then work was apparently busy, because she said she had to leave for school, and didn't have time for an adequate reply, nor could she really because she was still in shock and "trying to wrap [her] head around this curve ball [I'd] thrown." She concluded that she would call me Wednesday night before I went to work, which was not going to happen, as I work very early, or she would call Thursday night, which she hasn't as of now 10:05 pm CST, which I take means that she won't. So that means I have to wait until tomorrow, Friday, night when I get to work to recieve her full reply in my mailbox. So I have another 24 hours of suspense before I find out, pardon my French, what the fuck is going on. The letter really gave nothing away, so I'm no closer to an answer than I was before. There were things that may hint in one direction or the other, but alas, nothing definitive, so patience, patience, my friends. Tomorrow.

On a side note: Ceolnamara, I noticed that you're a Potter fan and a psych major, so I think you'll enjoy this: HARRY POTTER, ALCHEMY & MYTHOLOGY by JEREMY J. PARKER (that's me.)

Comments

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

damn that sucks...not sure if that's a good sign... but dragging anything like that out is pure torture... have her call me i'll give you a good reference :)

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

I don't need a good reference, but thanks. She knows that I effin' rock, pardon my ego. I feel it's going to come down to how stable and happy and in-love she is with her boyfriend. They've been together for awhile now (years!) and I just don't know. I mean, if it was an outright rejection, she could have easily just said that. I mean, if it's a flat-out no-way, what is there to talk about?

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

oh i forgot she had a byfriend...that definatly complicates things...that could be why she needs time...most people would say...you know i have a boyfriend as an out if they wanted one... and yes yo fucking rock!!

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

oops duh might have helped if i read your entire reply before i answered with the same statement

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

You know what I just realized? She has my website address, and there's a link to my LiveJournal. She could totally be reading this. Probably not, since she probably would have mentioned it before, but it is a possiblity.

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

paranoia great destroyah...never mind me i'm delerious

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

I was gonna say, isn't it past your bedtime, young lady?!

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

sleep? not sure what that is anymore.

[ceolnamara.livejournal.com]

meh, don't you hate when people you like don't give you straight answers right off?

and, i've made it to page four of the paper- great thus far. but i need to go to bed. so, more later.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

If the answer is positive, then I won't mind how much I'm waiting. If it's negative, well...

(Yeah, it's a long paper, but I reserched the eff out of it!)

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Did you ever make it all the way through?