The Waiting Game

[jackshoegazer]

I once again was privileged enough to spend an evening with Kiwikat and her hubby, which was a most enjoyable experience. Dinner and wine, which is turning into a regular event, and stimulating conversation, which, I am sad to say, I just don't get enough of. I got to see the beginning of my painting, and it's blue and grey so far, so at least it's some of my favorite colors. I'm curious what the whole thing is going to be. Hmmm... and the Hubby enlightened me about a game called Total War Rome or something like that. It's a fabulous game with immense amounts of detail, which I love. It's like a cross between Age of Empires and Civilization. Anyone who knows me will tell you how much I hate video games; it is truly the rare game I get excited about, so now I'm definitely looking forward to playing this one.

After much much deliberation, discussion and divination, I decided to tell Anna how I feel, and I did so in a two page letter. I gave it to her this morning as I was leaving work. When I go back tonight at 7:30, I'm sure I'll have a response back from her. I have no patience, and an overactive conspiracy program, and again, I hate waiting. I'm nervous, so much so that my stomach is doing cliche' flips and flops. I just hate no knowing. I have laid it all on the line, and I'm perfectly willing to accept whatever comes my way, but it's this Waiting Game that drives me insane. If I had run the Schoedinger's Cat experiment, I would have opened the damned box to see if the cat was alive or dead. Again, I hate this not knowing shit. Wish me luck.

Comments

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

That's why it's always better to do it in person...rejection is quick and then you don't worry about the answer so much...but of course its much more akward for all those involved... but either way remember it is always flattering to know someone admires you... so don't stress too much... you have a lot to offer.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

As far as the leter goes, I'm MUCH more eloquent in writing than I am in speech. It's eaier to be charming and funny when you're not there. :P

[moonshinekat.livejournal.com]

aww you are charming and witty in person too

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Ah, charming and witty, but not eloquent. I can write a letter like 'nobody's business".

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

i know she replied- i was clocking out when she put it in your mailbox. so it's totally there. i'm not nosy or rude or evil enough to have snuck a peek, so it'll just have to stay a mystery for the day. sorry pardner.

if you go home early you best write me a note so i know how it went! (totally kidding).

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Oh my god, was she scowling, or smiling euphorically?!

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

sorry babes, i don't know the girl, it would be cruel of me to speculate and dash your hopes/give you false hope/etc. she just looked pretty calm.