"Irrevocably broken" is a powerful pair of words.

[jackshoegazer]

Sometimes I think I forget to smile for photographs.  I don't mean to look so serious, but my amusement never seems to get from my eyes into the camera.  I thought I looked pretty good today so when I got back from my morning excursion, I snapped a quick picture.  I tried three times, but this is the only one that wasn't fuzzy.

Comments

[lucidpseudogod.livejournal.com]

you're good folk

you don't put on airs though you persevere if I may use that verb in a
novel manner a sense of stoutness, and once again, using the adjective
newly

though you do look like you want to kill something

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

I never am anything but what I am.

I don't look that angry irl. I hope.

[balamuthia.livejournal.com]

I highly approve of the blue tone. *nods*

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Thank you.

[chili-das-schaf.livejournal.com]

You always remind me of Matt Parkman from Heroes.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Haha, that's funny. I need to watch that show.

[bizarre.livejournal.com]

I see the start of a smirk in this one

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

True :)

[natural-path.livejournal.com]

It is good to see your face on my friends page,
it has been a while my friend.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

I've spent 13 days in the hospital this summer. No fair.

[natural-path.livejournal.com]

Well now,
I guess you'll just have to go spend 14 days in the FUNspital.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

OH. MY. GOD.

I can't believe you really just said that.

[natural-path.livejournal.com]

I wasn't being sarcastic!
go have fun!
now!

[sliding-doors.livejournal.com]

ooooo take pictures of your bookcase please. (:

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

I think I may do that. That particular one is Jacquelyn's.

[jennywho.livejournal.com]

the non-smile was originally perfected by the artist Beck, in my opinion.
Whom I was obsessed with, and had his posters smathered all over my barracks dorm room.

But even the non-smiley you is easy on the eyes.

[dakini-grl.livejournal.com]

We break. We put ourselves back together again. Sheer human resilience fascinates me, and I think in some ways reassures me that there is divinity in all things.

I see a little curl starting in the corner there -- and it's hard to smile for yourself, though. I imagine one day you'll sneak up on yourself and catch yourself in the act.

And I haven't gotten a chance to tell you how relieved I am to read that you are back at home and feeling so much better.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Thank you, it's good to be back and feeling "normal."

I think it's that I think posed smiles look fake in photos and I hate that. I want to be genuine and if that means I don't smile in self-portraits, so be it.

I am reminded of a quote I read once about how every heartbreak brings us closer to our true selves, closer to the heart that won't break.

[enodia.livejournal.com]

It's great to see you looking so good and back in action.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Thanks. As another commenter said, apparently major surgery and stress agree with me :P

[weishaupt.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you look splendid but I was too busy trying to read the titles on your books to notice :P

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

That's Jacquelyn's shelf. I should do an updated post of my bookshelves.

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

You're lookin' fiiine. Major surgery and tons of stress suit you?

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Apparently! I should do that more often.... NOT!

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

I hear emergency appendectomies are all the rage out on the west coast.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

You get to lose weight and the hospital food makes your skin glow.

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

Is that it? Then I need to go to the hospital because DC gave me zits. For the first time since I was like 17 I'm broken out like a mofo.

But I'm KindOfAlmostTan! Ish! Not white as a sheet, at least!

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

I bet the radiation probably helped with the skin-glowing, at least a smidge.

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

Also, it's totally annoying that I was downstairs cleaning and doing shit and I just happen to come up here to check emails and reply EXACTLY ONE MINUTE after you comment back. It makes it look like I live at the computer.

Bastard intarwebs.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

You carry your computer on your belly like Telletubbies. Admit it!

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

That would be so much more convenient. Actually I keep it implanted into Dingis' back- then I have to catch the bastard when I want to click onto a new page. It's very taxing.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

That would make sitting at the computer a much more cardiovascular healthy chore.

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

When I have a kid eventually I should strap a laptop to him as soon as he learns to walk. Then I can be a good parent AND on the internet a lot AND get all skinny and shit. There we go!