You are right about that...and there's nothing wrong with being picky.
But sometimes we lose out on a moment while trying to create a space for a future manifestation...and sometimes, we need to have those times of lonliness, so that we can work through them and differenciate them from aloneness; and sometimes when we learn where that line is, we go from being'picky' to being 'focused', and we are able to draw to us that which we need on whatever level we need it...
I hated being alone after the last broken heart. I gave up on ever finding 'the one'.
Now I am in Love again...and I reiterate - there IS no 'one'. I love him more than all the others ever put together - yet, I can see how we could end up being 'just friends with benefits' as our lives go into different directions...he says that I'm just scared, and maybe he is right, but I am a natural born romantic(venus in pisces in my first house!) and my heart does not listen at all to my head, which leads to broken heart...So this time, I am not trying to make 'us' into anything but what it is with every new dawn. We have plans for a future - but Life brings shifts, as change is the only constant - and he and I have both had open heart surgery with rusty implements by ex-loves, and when we realized that we might be more than remotely interested in each other, we laid out the worst of ourselves to each other, trying to scare the other away...picky? yeah. With good reason - those of us who have been slain, but did not completely die, are recovering, to become stronger than ever...but the scar tissue becomes our armour...you may not find someone to spend the rest of your time here with - but, if you open your heart, you know that there are infinite types of love, and that, in truth, it's always raining when you look for love in your life...I see how your friends love you - it may not be exactly what you are seeking, but you have more than many (too many) will never have, and I know you know yer blessed that way...and it is because of that, that you will be found, under all those layers that moonchildren are so prone to hiding behind...and all will balance out...
Just remember what Lily Tomlin said - Never forget that we're all in this alone together...
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Date: 2005-08-23 09:01 am (UTC)But sometimes we lose out on a moment while trying to create a space for a future manifestation...and sometimes, we need to have those times of lonliness, so that we can work through them and differenciate them from aloneness; and sometimes when we learn where that line is, we go from being'picky' to being 'focused', and we are able to draw to us that which we need on whatever level we need it...
I hated being alone after the last broken heart. I gave up on ever finding 'the one'.
Now I am in Love again...and I reiterate - there IS no 'one'. I love him more than all the others ever put together - yet, I can see how we could end up being 'just friends with benefits' as our lives go into different directions...he says that I'm just scared, and maybe he is right, but I am a natural born romantic(venus in pisces in my first house!) and my heart does not listen at all to my head, which leads to broken heart...So this time, I am not trying to make 'us' into anything but what it is with every new dawn. We have plans for a future - but Life brings shifts, as change is the only constant - and he and I have both had open heart surgery with rusty implements by ex-loves, and when we realized that we might be more than remotely interested in each other, we laid out the worst of ourselves to each other, trying to scare the other away...picky? yeah. With good reason - those of us who have been slain, but did not completely die, are recovering, to become stronger than ever...but the scar tissue becomes our armour...you may not find someone to spend the rest of your time here with - but, if you open your heart, you know that there are infinite types of love, and that, in truth, it's always raining when you look for love in your life...I see how your friends love you - it may not be exactly what you are seeking, but you have more than many (too many) will never have, and I know you know yer blessed that way...and it is because of that, that you will be found, under all those layers that moonchildren are so prone to hiding behind...and all will balance out...
Just remember what Lily Tomlin said - Never forget that we're all in this alone together...