Murder is not for the fainted. They're sleeping, you see.

[jackshoegazer]

Having arrived home from purchasing Thai Jasmine and Indian Basmati rice, I sit and write what I then wrote:

Day upon day of gloom
has rested in the sky-
clouding judgment
and disturbing dreams
with pinnacles of light
thrusting down
to penetrate
the night.

    And I mean it.  I feel like I haven't seen the sun in weeks, and being on third shift and thereby sleeping most days, does nothing but exacerbate that impression.  I used to think seasonal affectiveness disorder was a crock of shite.  Then I did a large amount of research into the pineal gland, melatonin and vitamin D production, all of which are linked to sunlight.  Now, I feel like a wilted plant, the sheltered half of a childhood science project.  Somewhere, there is another of me, getting all the sunlight and love a photosynthesizing entity could hope for, while I rest in a dark box, ignored by the glorious incendiary nuclear reactor in the sky.It hasn't been all for naught, because it has left me in an introspective mood, forcing my inner sun to shine, if you will.  A lot of malfunctions have been highlighted, as well as their solutions and I'm almost optimistic.  I've also been formulating my next novel, and it's starting to take shape.

    I am going to go forward with my Jack Shoegazer, Esoteric Investigator idea.  He is going to have a Watson-like research assistant/sidekick, a Frenchman named Avec Moi.  Jack is going to get brought in to investigate a mysterious incident, what most people described as an explosion, but a few said they saw strange lights and weird unidentified flying objects.  And I will tie this all into the origins of Scientology, L. Ron Hubbard, Jet Propulsion Laboratories, Ceremonial Magick, Aleister Crowley, and the LAM/Grey phenomenon.  Now I just have to find some time to write it.

    Ah, Jacquelyn made a stir-fry with one of my aforementioned rices and I must now eat.  Toodles!

Comments

[faelhach.livejournal.com]

That sounds like quite a book in the making.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I've been sitting on the Jack Shoegazer idea for several months now, waiting for just the right plot to set him in. Alas, a car bomb in the parking garage across the street from my girlfriend's apartment sparked the inspiration I needed :)

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

there needs to be more sun.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

Yes, more sUn, but not more sOn, and definitely not more sunS. One is enough.

I read a book, a totally serious book, that said the Freemasons sent a nuclear device on a satelite to Jupiter and were going to crash it into Jupiter and turn it into a small sun.

Uh huh.

That's very interesting. Better make a note of it :P

[ghostwes.livejournal.com]

Novel sounds good. May I ask what your first was about?

I've written two science fiction novels for NaNoWriMo, for 2004 and 2005. They're both rather crappy, I think, but I had a lot of fun writing them.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

I've always been horrible busy for NaNoWriMo, (i.e... in a van crossing New England) so I've never been been able to do it, though I'd like to try.

My first book is called Complex Psyche -or- The OmegAphelion of Mustafa Shibui and it's a sort of a surreal, absurd apocalyptic scavenger hunt in the fault lines of the soul. It was co-written with a friend of mine and we're doing final polishing now before we start shopping it around to publishers.

You're welcome to read it if you like. The more feedback the better.

[ghostwes.livejournal.com]

Certainly. The book sounds very interesting, though it may take me a while to get to it. Please send it to wes.weston@gmail.com, if you don't mind.

So you work midnights too, eh? I might look into that melatonin you mentioned elsewhere in this thread.

[matt120.livejournal.com]

As someone who keeps ninja hours as well, I normally experience major suckage during the winter. however, this year, it isn't so bad. It helps that it's an easy winter so far... no subzero freezing temperatures in NY and very light snowfall. Yay, global warming! (kidding... *runs away before your girlfriend maniacally murders me with an axe*) Also, having been given 5 seasons of Family Guy .avi's on dvd helps, too.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

I rarly feel the difference, because I self-medicate with melatonin, which is the brain chemical that doesn't get made because of lack of sun :) You can buy it in any pharmacy/health food store.

Don't worry, I took away her axe. Now she can only berrate you to death.

Have you seen the Family Guy movie... Stewie Griffin: the Untold Story?

[matt120.livejournal.com]

The stewie movie was hillarious. I have it.
You use melatonin? You should go back in time and be born black.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

MelaTOnin, not melanin, silly.

Melanin is what makes skin pigment.

Melatonin regulates all your funky brain chemicals.

[matt120.livejournal.com]

Hee hee heeeeeee!!!


Kill Whitey!!!

[kiwikat.livejournal.com]

you should come over tomorrow. i have dank.

[jackshoegazer.livejournal.com]

That's terribly tempting, but ultimately not fair, because I don't think I can :(